Adventures in Unemployment

I have a friend who spent her period of unemployment calling it her "funemployment" and had parties and things to celebrate it.

I'm not really up to planning parties these days, but I am doing my best to enjoy the flexibility I have in my life right now to go where I want and do what I want, even if that means sitting on the couch listening to Billie Holiday and knitting. 

Insecurity creeps in, certainly, but I do my best to remember that I have been a productive member of humanity and will be again. Baking, cooking, cleaning, stuff like this help me feel like I'm accomplishing little things. Thinking about the future, about next year at school, my thesis and life after that also help me feel productive. 

I'm volunteering. Secretly, I'm not a very good volunteer. If people aren't clear with me about where I should be and when, I tend to not show up. I know those that coordinate volunteers don't want to do that because a volunteer doesn't have to listen to them, but I wish they would more often with me. helping out at the meditation center is great, though. It puts me in the meditation center to begin with, which exponentially increases the likelihood that I'll practice. The work they ask me to do isn't complicated or taxing, it's all completely manageable and, frankly, it's nice to be given permission to dust a staircase and just do only that for a while.

Anyway, life isn't terribly interesting right now, I'm mostly just keeping on and that's ok.