I hate people

I hate meeting new people. I get nervous, which makes me tired, and then I can't switch on and be as charming as I want to be.

Coming back, I have to meet a lot of people. I don't have anything against anyone, I'm just nervous to be here, to feel so much pressure to make a good impression and to have to network.

I don't like to talk like this, but I wish I were more interesting and interested, I wish I weren't so tired, I wish I were more engaging and less awkward. I wish I was someone that people liked quickly.

That's all.

Note: It occurred to me while I was thinking about this little post that the problem probably isn't that I hate people, but that I'm not really ok with myself. *sigh* Back to the mat.